September 13, 2002
drifting, drifting oh so sweetly
Going to the Goodwill on my lunch break and finding the most amazing, �oh-so-gothic� knee length black coat made my morning.
Getting the �punk chick� sticker out of the vending machine by the check out counter made my afternoon.
Finding a little trinket that my mother will fall in love with (that I�ve seen at antique stores for much more) at another thrift store made my evening. The fact that it�s in perfect condition and only cost 99 cents made it even better.
Going to a coffee shop and sitting at a table with a cup of coffee and six boys who I consider good friends made my night.
Changing into something soft and silky and sliding under the covers, drifting off to sleep with a big furry cat cuddled up next to me made my morning.
And what�s more?
Emails made me happy..
Talking to the boys made me smile..
References to nudity and hot goth girl porn online made me laugh..
Phone calls from certain people failed to upset me..
The absence of phone calls from other people failed to make me feel insecure..
And today I�m sitting here empty. Worn out from lack of sleep. Tired of trying to smile and act cheerful. Drifting off into so many daydreams. Resenting the incessant ringing of the phone which pulls me out of them.. but at least it�s Friday.
Friday the 13th.
Rock the fuck on.
Oh, and I'm in the market for a new diary to fall in love with.. any recommendations?
10:40 a.m.