July 10, 2002
analogy of my life
Have you ever felt like you were all alone in the middle of the ocean.. nothing in sight in any direction, unknown creatures with unknown intentions lurking beneath you. No rescuers in sight. Almost no expectation of ever seeing land again. Just you, treading water in some absurd attempt at survival while your arms and legs get more and more tired and weak and your skin gets colder and colder..
That�s how I feel right now. I�m not going anywhere.. not doing anything worthwhile.. not striving towards any particular goals.. I�m just treading water, trying to force myself to swim when a little voice inside of me keeps urging me to sink. Down into the comforting arms of the unknown..
11:13 p.m.